that's life (=

it's a crazy fact how some place, that brought people together is going to be the place that's gonna seperate us.

it's crazy, i tell you. the feeling is beyond description.

although it's been about 2 months or so, somehow, the bond that was created during that short period of time is enough to cover the whole damned building. aiya, i just don't want all of us to seperate, which in turn would probably cut off contacts with one another because all of us live so far from one another. also, all of our levels are different. some are waiting for poly, some jc, some completed jc, waiting for A's, some waiting for NS and some, are just waiting to change jobs. some, i don't know.

i know, many will say, "Still can meet up what." but if you do realise, the feeling won't be the same anymore. besides asking each other "How's life," and other what-nots, there won't be much to talk about. what can you ask? you might just end up asking a question that might leave both parties in an awkward silence after answering it. i don't like that.

like my clique, "still can meet up what.." yah loh, i see my wife the most only. the others, they rather play LAN. walao. sickening. luckily my husband not one of them. argh

it seems as if everyone around me is PMSing. really. and i think im gonna PMS too. i get irritated easily, and doesn't wish to talk much. even when i laugh, it's like, layaning you, entertain you only. it doesn't really come from my heart, i guess. it's like a facade, a facade of life. masquerade.. masquerade..

it's times like this, i feel that i should be back to square one. crimson. nonetheless, i think about many things and certain people. and also the lies i have to create to cover up the crap i've done. which sucks cos i'm going against myself.

let's not digress.

ANYWAY, today's JIALE's birthday(=.

happy 19th birthday.

he did something stupid today. we were heating up the satay on the metal grill. after that, jiale was clearing up, but he couldn't take the grill of the heater. so, i told him "it expands.". he just kept quiet and continued to shake and pull the grill out of the heater. i repeated. "it expands" around 3 times. until he went, "oh yah hor. metal expands when there's heat. sorry la, i already forgotten all my secondary school stuffs. i think when i come out from NS, i forget how to write already."

that really made me laugh la. and also when he said soyah's the man. cannot make it. HAHA.

bahh, farhan and ariff today last day. it's crazy. the type of crazy that drives a sane to insane.

it's okay, im glad i met you both. especially that VICTORIAN. HAH. i think i'll miss him randomly tapping my shoulder.

and for farhan, i doubt i'll call anyone by the name of farhan, "Abang Farhan." haha. abang, abang, (=

it's freaking sickening.

I HATE SAYING GOODBYES. COS IT FEELS LIKE FOREVER.

How do I say goodbye to what we had, the good times that made us laugh outweigh the bad